MID FALL MOOD BOARD

Hey guys so as promised here's my mood board for this month. Lately I'm really into flesh tone colored garments, and very formfitting clothing. I've never really been extremely self conscious with my body, but I just get a little overwhelmed when I can't just throw on things. Sometimes I have to consider if my butt is going to look too out there. (My big booty girls know what I'm talking about). But lately I've really been feeling myself and showing off my curves with pride. I'm loving olive tones, heavy knits, I basically live in turtlenecks they're great for layering with vest and dresses. Like every winter I always on the hunt for the perfect  faux fur coat I found one at River Island but I'm not in the best position to spend $140 on a coat( broke girl problems). My life would officially be made if I got some snake print booties for my birthday, just putting that into the universe perhaps things might look up for me. Minimalism is still something I'm into and I'm in the middle of trying to filter out my closet  little by little to represent what I'm interested in and also what looks good on me. I hope you guys enjoy and get some inspiration as well and until next.

xoxo Lulu

Confessions of the Unhappy

          I guess this is me having a midlife crisis but I just came from taking a shower and I looked in the mirror. I was surprised  because the person I saw looked like no one knew, for a moment I was confused with who exactly that person was looking back at me. She looks like a stranger. 

          As I gazed at myself I realized that I am old. And I don’t mean that in the dramatic sense like I'm an old lady but I mean I am getting older. I am not a kid anymore. Sometimes I feel like I’m drifting in life but I just can’t seem to find where I’m going, who I am or who it is that I want to be. I just don’t know anything. And when I was looking in the mirror just then I had this striking sense of disappointment of what I saw. What if my younger self met me now? Would she be impressed because honestly I’m not even impressed.

         When I was ten I figured that by the time I was 21 I’d be a big somebody I’d be slim, chic, and simply fabulous; a big girl with all her shit together, and perhaps I’d even have a boy who loved and cared about me. I figured by that time I would have experienced my first real love that shook me to the core and changed me. But I haven’t because I’m emotionally guarded and it’s almost like I’m allergic or simply terrified of being close to anyone. And the one person that I want is with someone else which is somewhat tragic but not the end of the world; because deep down I know it would never actually work . And when I see all of my friends, and my sisters and all the random lovely dovey couples around me sometimes I wonder when will it be my turn. When will I find my person that just gets me, and wants me for me.

          I looked in the mirror and realized that in 2 weeks I’ll be 19 and next year I’ll be 20 then the year after that I’ll be 21 and I’m nowhere near being anything  like what I dreamed. I don’t know shit about shit. School is literally kicking my ass because in this particular moment I’m not into it. And career wise I just don’t know how to take the first step to get me started, and my romantic life is almost completely nonexistent because I’ve been stuck on the same person from the moment I met him. But everyone thinks I’m okay and that life is amazing just smooth sailing. But I’m mentally and physically exhausted; I need a breath of fresh air something to shake me up. I looked in the mirror today and I got a reality check I am sad and lonely. And life is nothing but a series of  unexpected question marks , it’s never anything like you dream it to be. Shit happens and you’ll never be actually what you thought you would be, but you just have to learn to be okay with that. So as 19 approaches I'll be taking it with stride because I'm hoping life gets better.

xoxo Lulu

KERMEE MOOD BOARD

Hey guys I knows it's been a while but I wanted to show a mood board I did a few weeks ago for my Display Exhibition Class. I got most of these pictures off my Tumblr which is where I find a lot of my inspiration. So for my class we had to create a brand then a mood board that represents that brand. We're also in the middle of actually creating a small scale shoe display exhibition.  I've never done anything like this before, so I will definitely keep you posted. I'll have another mood board of what's I've been inspired by lately coming up soon on my blog. Until next time!

xoxo Lulu